NOT what I am looking for

So tonight I was very much reminded of why I have made the decisions I have personaly made and that I am quite happy with them...
It has been a long time since I have "gone out" and I am not at all interested in making it a habit but I had heard of a few places that did sound like that they might be slightly different and fun to check out....
Mainly this place called Twist and Shout....Its a dueling Piano bar....
Now we all have different convictions on certain things and that is fine....but this is what happens to me when I go to places like this....
1.) I am reminded that this is the very life that God took me out of almost 13 years ago and I have no desire to ever go to back to it....why....after ALL that God has done for me personally in my life would I ever want to go back to that enviroment....
2.) I hurt...I mean really Hurt for the people that I see there....Their is NO possible way that I could EVER have fun there...I might share a few laughs are whatever but I am truly miserable when I look around at each person there....I hurt for the lost....that this is the life that they know and have chose and I know that their is so much more for them...I have been there...I have lived that life...and I know the true pain and emptyness that is hidden within their hearts...and I hurt fo rmy Christian friends that are there...NOW....in no way is this condeming or comming down on people that have made different choices than I have made....this is just how I fell and how my Spirit and Heart is affected....I hurt for my friends b/c I know the work God Has done in their lives and wants to do through them...I feel that their is SOOOOOOOO much more to what we can be doing with our lives and the INFLUENCE that we can be having on those around us...but that is all I will say on that b/c this is not a bashing blog...this is a thoughtful here is my heart blog
3.) I feel GREATLY out of place...a fish out of water...hey didn't I just hear a sermon on that...yea I think so...Ron Luce Thursday night desperation HA..thats funny...okay moving on....I am not me in that place...smiling laughing talking and just plain ol feeling like myself...if that makes sense....It is not my world...it is not my enviroment....The gifts and the personalilty traits that God has so richly given me does not come out in those enviroments but I feel is tucked away and hidden....and in that I truly find NO Joy....

Yes we are in the world we are to make a difference...BUT....we are NOT of the world......and when I am in those places I feel like I look just like them and I feel like I have checked my witnessing and influence at the door...and that is not a price I am willing to pay!