He Still Loves Me

Hey guys...Okay so I sent this email today to a friend...it really just came from my heart...it was very honest and wasnt' meant to be put out on a blog...but after writting it I just wanted to put it up here...to spark discussion or mabye even to minister...

So here is my email to an amazing new friend that I am VERY thankful for...you know who you are and you ROCK :-)

This is going to be a random message...just going to warn you hahaha...but
I am talking to my friend right now through text messages....she is going
through a hard time and I have been desperately trying to encourage her in
who she is in God, the value He has placed in her, and that she deserves
and NEEDS the best that God has for her!!
And why I text her and think about all the crazy decisions we all make as
human beings trying to find satisfaction and to just fill that void that we
can not escape without God....that He is STILL so VERY faithful....and
that amazes me...
All I can say is that I am in awe of God right now....
I am sitting here thinking about my own life....I love God with all of my
heart...I sooooo desire to know him more and more.....to go from Glory to
Glory....to experience ALL that He has for me....But.....I continually fall
short of the Glory of God.....but everytime I fall flat on my face and go
okay God I did it again...even knowingly mess up .... I lift up my eyes and
amazingly I still see him standing there...
I don't know why he doesn't give up on me....I don't knwo why He loves me
that much....enough to wash my sins, mistakes, and just selfishness
away....But He does...and for that today I am in awe of Him
I was reading in the old testament about having a "loyal heart" and that
struck me and has stayed with me....it reminds me of the lyric from
Delirious about keeing my heart upon His alter....That is what I WANT!!!
I want a Loyal heart...one that does not so easily turn away when I find
something temporaly....one that doesn't look for other things to fill that
void while still knowing that it won't and only God can
Because He has done so much for me I want to do so much for Him.
I want to be loyal...to make Him proud....to bring a smile upon His face
I want to be His child...His daughter :-)
Okay....thanks for letting me share that :-) hahahaha


As I continued to think about what I wrote and actually talked it out with another close friend God began to speak to me about it....He began to bring peace to my heart....
I just couldn't and still really can't get my mind around the idea that I willingly mess up and God still loves me and forgives me....and that is when he reminded me that He knows that I am human...He knows I am going to mess up....I am NOT perfect!!!!! I will NEVER be perfect......
BUT....Out of my love for Him because He first loved me I am going to pick up my cross daily and follow hard after Him...I am going to pick myself up...brush the dirt off, and take a look at my bruises and learn from them...They will go away but I don't want them again...

I surrender...I surrender to His Love and His Will...to His Best for me....because His Best is more than what I could ever ask for or dream for...
So God I trust in You...God I am love with...
And from the depths of my heart I am soooo thankful that you First Loved me.....Thank you